told you i'll be back to post about all my feelings!
told you, told you!
Let me share a good news with you guys first kkkkk.
MY SIS FINALLY REACHED MANCHESTER ALRD!!!! (:
SAFE AND SOUND!
HEHE. okay, back to topic ~~
this post might be rather wordy&emotional.
Skip reading this if you hate emotional stuffs!

I have been encountering a serious problem to fall asleep these few nights.
So many things happened on me.
Sometimes, i really do will wonder:
Why am i going through one thing after another.
Last Wed,This Wed,Next Wed.
Is this some test for me? Is this some challenge for me?
Will i be able to endure all these.
Safely&Sound. Still be happy?
Suddenly i just feel so lack of confidence.
(i was still telling chunyang to be confident this afternn)
dont you find it easy to advice others, but when it happens to you,
you get a blank mind?
Oh yes, i certainly do. :(
Lack Of Confident. (VERYVERYVERY) upset etc etc.. is what im feeling
these days. All th negative feelings.
i hate it lah.
im starting to fear night time. i hate the quietness at home.
i hate the feeling that im alrd physically&mentally tired,
but i just cant fall asleep. Dam sh*t.
in fact, im trying to refrain myself from taking afternoon naps,
just to hope that i can fall asleep easier in the night.
damn!!!!!! :(
to be frank, i even had the thought of getting some pills from Doctor just to sleep well and better.
But i didnt do it la~ i'll sound very suicidal if i ever do that?
Dont worry,i wont haha.
some people said that listening to music will fall asleep too?
I tried, but it cant!!!! :(
i just feel even more awake. damn damn damn!!
and now,
a bigger reason for me to not sleep alr :(
My BelovedBelovedBeloved sis has left for Manchester.
you know, sometimes i really hoped that i have a very matured mind.
i hate my mind that imagine things so wildly. i hate it lah.

Yesterday night, we sent sis to the airport at 930pm.
Poor sis had to carry a supersuper big luggage, a big box, her backpack and a small luggage, just to occupy all her things.
BUT these arent th only ones, Joyce&Sis had even shipped a DHL jumbo box over to Manchester alr!! alot alot of barangbarang ar!!!
Reached th airport around .............. 1030pm.
On th journey to car, th atmosphere was so quiet, so not lik us...... :(
Met SecondAunt at th airport, she reached there at lik 8plus :X OMG
Went for some drinks while waiting for Joyce&th rest to arrive.
another 3Aunts&1Uncle came to send sis off at th airport too(: so nice of them!
Later,met Joyce&family too. Sis had to check in her luggages alr.
Sis luggages over-exceeded th weight :O :O :O :(
Had to pay a sum of money, omg. You wont want to know how much we had to pay!!!!
But thank god, everything was smooth later on.
Weixin&Co came to send sis off too(:
Later,sis band clique came too!
lots of people to send my belovedsis.
Lik almost, 25!!!!
So nice,so warm.
haha,Joyce's whole group of friends came too!
So we were like all occupying such a BIG space there lah. But who cares(: haha
took alot of pictures.
Saw QingHui there too!
Sis has a company of very nice&sweet friends!!
Weixin&Co did this hand-made longlonglong card for sis.
Her band clique did this handmade card for her too!
heard that thy had alr posted a present to sis's hostel too!
so nice rightttttttttt :D
Took pictures with Joyce&Sis of cause hehe.
dont have them in my camera, its in sis camera.
Post them when ive received from sis hehe.
So glad to see having a nice group of friends (: (: (: (: Happy for her.
Joyce&Sis went in at 1245
Everyone bid goodbye to th both of them.
and of cause i criedddddddddddddddd :(
some of sis friends were really really nice.
esp qinghui,norain etc... thy asked me to cheerup and be strong
haha,and qinghui said that she shall entertain me on MSN(:
so nice hor themmmmmmmmmmmm :D
hehe. i cried lik crazy X:
if i didnt cry, i think im heartless lah huh.
from th moment sis went into th gate,
i told myself this
THERESACHEONG, ALL THE TEARS YOU'RE GONA SHED NOW CAN ONLY BE CAUSE
YOU MISS SIS. AND NOT FOR OTHER REASONS, NOT FOR OTHER PEOPLE
went off at like 1plus.
Sent SecondAunt home.
On th car back, i really felt a sharp pain.
i hope i have th matured thinking that sis is gg for a good cause.
i know i must be happy for her.
i must be proud that i have a strong&brave sis!
Thanks Joyce for gg with sis. Sis wont be alone(:
now, i shall pray tthat thy are able to stay under th same hostel, same room!!!! PLS~
my sis didnt cry when all of us cried. so strong ><
i must be happy for sis.
when she is back after her studies, her future will be so much brighter and better!
i must be happy for her, very happy(:
hehe . proud of her!!!!

Yday night, had a really very hard time to sleep again.
I miss sister so much.
I just dont feel right w/out her at home.
But i know, i must get used to it.
BelovedSis got me 2 handmade diary/planners for me.
IM GONA WRITE THEM. IM GONA TAKE GOOD CARE OF THEM.
IM GONA WRITE THEM EVEN IF IM TIRED, SICK , BUSY.
I MUST WRITE(:
A PROMISE.
hehe.

Skipped yoga this morning,didnt have th mood to go.
Went for gym@430pm.
Dam tired, veryvery tired.
Hopefully my body wont ache tmr.
1hr30mins of exercise. Really exercise till my knees are wobbly!!!!
haha,i feel so weak in my stamina.
Jazzclass@830pm tmrw.
Oh,and went for my X-ray today too.
DentalAppt tmr @430pm.

Okay~~~~~~~
signing off now(:
im going to teach daddy&mommy how to use msn,skype and videocall!! :D
hehe.
im feeling rather happy now.
messaging sis now,
she finally reached Manchester safely!
she loves her school environment!! hehe.
(: (: (:
now i shall pray that sis will be safe&sound throughout,healthy always(:
hehe.
I Misssss Her!!!

i cant wait to meet my QianMeiMei.
i cant wait to meet th clique.
i cant wait to meet my gf.
to spill everything to them!!!!!!!!!!
wohoo.

Lastly,
i would like to thank each&every one of you whom
really cared&consoled me these period of times.
you-knw-yourself(:
i would like to thank everyone whom made th way down to send my sis to th airport(:
Thankssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :D

okay,bye world!