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Friday, December 2, 201111:52 AM
=(this shall be a follow-up of my previous post. the worst had happened. probably when you expect more in yourself, you wil tend to feel even more awful whn you failed in your own expectation.Y'knw why? supposed you're the one whom knows yourself best, you expect yourself to fare in a certain way, but when you fare below expectation. You really feel super awful. I mean definitely right. The thing I can only do now, is to wait and wait and still wait.But the worst scenario is that you failed in the easiest section instead of the toughest section. All my friends said probably I was too nervous? i don know ! =(i don't wish to give myself any other excuses besides, i really am not good at all. Nevertheless, I really wish to thank all those friends that have lent me a helping hand, or a crying shoulder. thanks for all the heartwarming texts. it really meant a whole lot to me =) thankyou so much so much!!! while im reading all those posts of girlfriends enjoying their nights out with their bfs, pre-field camp nights out etc.... i really missed my boy even more. although for the past few weekends, ive been spared from the agony of boooking in. but i think this feeling is even worse. =( really miss him so much so much. but well, the most heartwarming part will be hearing that he is fine and his laughter despite all the hardwork. i hope, i really hope he's doing fine. ive got so many movies i wanna watch!!!hope we wont miss any movies. if not i'll kill him~ haha. jus kidding (: on a side note, i bumped into one of my primary school bestfriend on Monday in school. i didn't notice her at all till she jumped in front of me. the feeling was.... awesome. after all that had happened, im really glad that she called on me!!! =) well. yes, i really hate those backstabbers to the core! argh probably they are just cowards that are jealous of you? argh come on, get a life cowards!!!! but im glad, nothing harmed us. =) felt really happy when she came up to me, it was awesome definitely. a friendship that i thought was over, was actually not !! hiak hiak :) and i could see from her expression, she was soooo excited! i was surprised too definitely! but, the feeling when we both see each other, stumbled awhile and wished each other a good day. nevertheless, i hope she's doing good. :) you're definitely missed by me, dear friend!! and im forming a study group with soci clique! ;) kicking off this Tue. hiak hiak MY COUNTDOWN IS LEFT WITH ............. 10DAYS!
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