• Clarence & Theresa'S {♥}

1st of June

Friday, June 1, 20121:09 AM

A Whole New Month

but not a whole new beginning. :(

Super upset & fearful for the days ahead.
Extremely not used to not receiving your calls, not knowing how are you doing there.
And whether i've ever crossed your mind these while.

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After a long break!

Tuesday, May 29, 20129:02 AM

AFTER THE LONGEST BREAK!

Yes, after the longest break ive ever given myself. Im finally back to this space.
Exams ended on 17th May. First time in my study life, i rly mugged hard! and it rly was HARD.
3months of preparation for my 5 final papers? madness.
The thought of y2, y3. This process continues, rly scares me.
Ah whatever, i shld enjoy my holis first right. Before the release of result, haha.
Reason why i didnt rly wish to come back to this space;
Ive made wrongful decisions for the past few months tht i rly regret alot alot alot :(
But no point regretting anymore too. It rly cant be undone. Oh sigh.
I didnt want to pen my thoughts down, because. I rly dont wish to be reminded of what ive done.

Time flies. The last post was regarding bb's thailand trip. And now, he's away again...
for Brunei's trip. But oh fugg, this trip sucks :(
No phones allowed. what nonsense srsly?!
what if their family members in spore need to contact thm urgently? :(
This is the v first time both of us dont speak for days & days & days.
And whats worse, we dont know when we can nxt chat. FML :(
rly dam torturous inside me.

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Friday, February 24, 201211:07 AM

=((
friday...
wonder how will i fall asleep tonight?
guess after today, after this posts. i'll frequent blog to express my heartfelt words.
since, no one and nobody i can talk to for the next 27 days.
sometimes, i rly feel that Heaven's playing such a big joke on me.
don't you feel the same at times too?
Why on earth, why at this point of time you have to send him for overseas training?
when i'll be so stressed up & suffer frm nervous/anxiety breakdown now and then soon. why do you have to take away my pillar of strength?
WHY?! TELL ME WHY?
should i feel proud tht he is selected out of so many people?
should i feel honoured tht he as the ACSM has to go?
should i feel happy tht he will be promoted after this trip?
YES I SHOULD. I MUST. I OUGHT TO.
nobody, NOBODY's gg to ever understand what i'll go through. what i'm feeling inside.

oh effffffffff it man !!

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short update !

Monday, February 20, 20126:13 PM

Short update!
Celebrated Valentine's Day for the second time with Boyf.
I love those pretty pink shades of flowers surprised upon his early bookout.
On Sat, sent Aarti off with bestfriend and bf, my bf & siewhong.
Super happy to see boyf mingling well with my friends. (:
And it's relieved to see my closed ones finding their soulmate like i do. (:

On another note, have really been coped at home mugging for exams like nobody's business ):
stressed at moments, and really doubted myself if ive had made the right choice.
i will hang in there ~ (:
this saturday, boyf's leaving for overseas training for a longgggggggg 27 days.
it's going to be very tough once again for the both of us. But,
I know we'll pull through this.
Sincerly feels touched when boyf he tells me those heartfelt words. (: (: (:
super loveeeee this boy !!

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happy 2012

Wednesday, January 4, 20125:18 PM

so how did you guys spent your countdown to Xmas/2012?
Mine was awesome as usual with the boyf.
Turned 20 days back before 2012, had a super surprising bday celebration with boyf.
As awesome as a pre-bday present where my boyf passed out as a 3rd sergeant.
And post-bday present was that ever-so-long yet rare 10days of blockleave.
bday celebration with boyf was a blast, aftermath we headed down to weiqi's 21st bday celebration where my boy could catch up a lil with his best bud.

& the both of us headed to Johor Premium Outlets on the 22nd dec.
yap that new bbranded outlets in Johor. So much similar to Chester's & Birmingham.
But obviously those were so much bigger & attractive than the one boyf & I went.
not all shops were opened thou, and all the sizes were extremely big for the both of us.

Christmas countdown was ....... crazily crowded at town.
same for new year countdown.
but we decided to spend off some cash & grab a seat at the floating platform, watching the performance, watching the ever so beautiful fireworks.
okay at least cause i'd not want to squeeze with the crowd.
Sissy & friends joined us.
boyf saw his best army bud hiak hiak.=)
& something rather funny happened like both boyf & I got a mineral water, we placed it on the seats, and some tourists thought it was free of charge, just grabbed them away.
funny much!?
and after the countdown,we headed to lau pat sat for supper & calling for cabs continuously.
thnkgod, a nice uncle came down to pick us up fron Jurong =)
another weird encounter like, a drunkard standing in the middle of the road, stopped our cab, pulled open our door :o
okay obviously i was shocked duh . hahaha.
but thnkgod it was all fine & we were all home safely @ 4am.

so how had your 2012 been so far?
guess its kinda screwed up so far for us.
having to be a scapegoat of something super embarrassing.
if only every citizens in singapore or rather everyone living in singgapore bear tht lil social responsibility, social ethics, such things will never have to happen.
it's super embarrassing & heartbreaking whn its all new, NEW NEW NEW.
argh! okay, i'll not giveup on believing tht 2012 will b smooth for me.
i'm sure it will =)

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Monday BOOOOOOOO

Monday, December 5, 201111:04 PM

Monday BOOOOOOOOOOES.

and my youtube player is playing 那些年 repeatedly.
super miss this song, super miss you. );
it has been long 10days, gg 11th.
i can't help but to feel this way again, i wished you were here beside me comforting me,
that everything's gg to be fine with you around.
baby, where are you now? i really missed you so much.
it never felt so long before. )):
tears welled up each time I see a couple on the streets, see those NS guys.
baby.... oh baby.
i think my pace is too fast. before i could even stop down and enjoy, im gone........ );
things are gone.

baby, i really miss you.
hope you're safe & sound.
whether or not others, i think its secondary alrd.
i miss you terribly, super terribly.
i need a mega hug from you.......... );

thankgod for those cheerful uni friends i have.
i had a super good laugh today.
thank girls!!
am meeting them for a study session tmrw.
i hope i'll be fine soon.. soon......

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Friday, December 2, 201111:52 AM

=(
this shall be a follow-up of my previous post.
the worst had happened. probably when you expect more in yourself, you wil tend to feel even more awful whn you failed in your own expectation.
Y'knw why?
supposed you're the one whom knows yourself best, you expect yourself to fare in a certain way, but when you fare below expectation. You really feel super awful. I mean definitely right.
The thing I can only do now, is to wait and wait and still wait.
But the worst scenario is that you failed in the easiest section instead of the toughest section.
All my friends said probably I was too nervous? i don know ! =(
i don't wish to give myself any other excuses besides, i really am not good at all.
Nevertheless, I really wish to thank all those friends that have lent me a helping hand, or a crying shoulder. thanks for all the heartwarming texts. it really meant a whole lot to me =)
thankyou so much so much!!!

while im reading all those posts of girlfriends enjoying their nights out with their bfs, pre-field camp nights out etc.... i really missed my boy even more.
although for the past few weekends, ive been spared from the agony of boooking in.
but i think this feeling is even worse. =(
really miss him so much so much.
but well, the most heartwarming part will be hearing that he is fine and his laughter despite all the hardwork. i hope, i really hope he's doing fine.
ive got so many movies i wanna watch!!!
hope we wont miss any movies. if not i'll kill him~ haha. jus kidding (:

on a side note, i bumped into one of my primary school bestfriend on Monday in school.
i didn't notice her at all till she jumped in front of me.
the feeling was.... awesome.
after all that had happened, im really glad that she called on me!!! =)
well. yes, i really hate those backstabbers to the core! argh
probably they are just cowards that are jealous of you? argh
come on, get a life cowards!!!!
but im glad, nothing harmed us. =)
felt really happy when she came up to me, it was awesome definitely.
a friendship that i thought was over, was actually not !!
hiak hiak :)
and i could see from her expression, she was soooo excited! i was surprised too definitely!
but, the feeling when we both see each other, stumbled awhile and wished each other a good day.
nevertheless, i hope she's doing good. :)
you're definitely missed by me, dear friend!!

and im forming a study group with soci clique!
;) kicking off this Tue. hiak hiak

MY COUNTDOWN IS LEFT WITH ............. 10DAYS!

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